Write it down so you know its REAL.

Hey family. How you feelin'?

Have you been taking care of yourself? Me: I've been doing my best, and that's been more than enough.

 

I have been so busy with so many wonderful changes, and writing these blogs has been something I have unintentionally put off. Even though I haven't been writing here, I journal every day. I've found journaling/ scripting to be a freeing experience where I have released so many things from my mind. When I choose to write, I've told myself that my intentions are to be 100% authentic myself FIRST. When I feel myself forcing it, I retreat. So now, as I write, these blogs have been able to flow like I like it. So even as you are reading this now, it's like we're having an open and vulnerable conversation, ya know?  And it's coming from a healed and real place. 

I'll share a memory that shaped me into being in love with writing. When I was younger, I received my first diary in 7th grade on my birthday from my aunt. I think she knew that at that age, I would begin to have more experiences that I would need to reflect on, release, and even sometimes keep to myself. From watching all those teenage shows like "Lizzie McGuire, Even Stevens", I mean all of them promoted the idea I assumed that a diary was an example of holding secrets IN. I later learned that as I wrote, I was able to freely express my thoughts on paper, more than I was able to do with people, even as a 12-year-old.

(Reflective moment: Wow, I realized that at 12.) I really didn't talk as much at that age, so as I began to write, I saw myself becoming more comfortable releasing things in that form. I didn't know at the time that as I was writing, the changes were coming even faster. 

SOMETHING I WISH I KNEW THEN: 

That writing was a way for me to connect with a higher me. Writing was a way for me to put those feelings out, with no concern or fears, because they were released from my mind. As I write it out, it is then released, and I can move forward in love, not fear. 

In my mind, I would write, consider them as secrets, not knowing those "secrets" could be identified as affirmations, releases, and ways to connect with God. One thing that I love about my life, as I reflect on it, is that even when I didn't have a full picture of my life, I was STILL being guided to who I was called to be. 

I've been having some revelations lately regarding "being the change". This journey of change has given me a new respect for people that you see who may seem like they have it together all the time, while we as viewers don't see the work they had to put in spiritually to keep that faith strong within themselves. I heard someone say that you have to find something inside you to inspire you every day, and I agree. Thats what helps you to "stop and smell the roses". 

Thought-provoking question: When you have had life experiences that only you know about, and you found the strength to get through them, how did you feel at the moment? How were you talking yourself THROUGH it? What were you affirming to yourself?

Going on the path less traveled, as I've experienced, is for the BRAVE. I can honestly say I feared it at one point. As I became more mature, I started asking myself, "What if you chose to have faith in YOU instead of FEAR?

I had already experienced the repetition of running away from hurt instead of facing it.  I feared that if I didn't do those brave things, who would I be? I had to be brave to see that change was happening for the better. Going in that direction was something I didn't know I had the strength to endure, AND I DID. That fear turned into my FIRE. I got through those moments in life where it felt like life was crashing down because it was, and I let it burn. Those moments in life, whether you are going through a job transition, healing from a relationship, or finding balance overall, start with you going within and seeing yourself. 

How can you see yourself if you don't hear yourself, feel it yourself, or reveal it yourself? You must choose to see. To see, you have to allow yourself to reflect. Writing is a powerful way to begin that deep reflection you've been needing for so long. 

Giving yourself thought-provoking questions like the ones above, helps you to dive deeper within so that you can become more honest with YOU. Write it out, even if you don't want to read it. At least you can HEAR your thoughts now. That's the beginning where you can recognize that you are becoming more aware of who you truly are at that moment in your life. 

I encourage you to know that as you are on this journey, you are always being guided by your faith. The mind is the most powerful asset that belongs to YOU. No person, place, or condition can control that part of you. How much do you value your mind? How much do you value protecting it? What are you willing to release, in an effective way, so that you can be free? 

HEALING REFLECTION: Allow yourself to reflect on your life so that you can really REMEMBER those moments where you KNEW you were divinely guided. Beyond the pain, how did FAITH win? 

Love y'all. 

I thank you for loving you. Thank you for being the change. 

I'm glad you're still here. 

-Kendreka Griffin

"Write it down and make it a declaration."